The Weekender #52: Slowing Down

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Even just thinking about this and trying to type it down feels messy. I just don´t know how to focus on something anymore, I kind of lost track of what really matters to me between all the growth process..

That´s it, basically. I´ve been going back and forth, doing job interviews, trying to fit everything on very tight schedules and I just can´t do it anymore. My eager to become better and do better is out of control, and I need some rest, or my head will explode shortly. I, leader of the flow campaign, am everything but flowing, and that sucks. I want to do lots of things, I want to progress and grow and that takes time, but for some reason my mind refuses to accept that fact. Instead, I´m only thinking of doing more and more things, not letting go of possibly good opportunities and that´s wrong. I´m taking a step back (or at least I will try) and take it slow. I know it will be hard for me but it´s what I need. Like, I´m reeeally ready for all the good things but it´s one step at a time. Also, these crazy times have lead to a very poor blog maintenance which is unforgivable and hopefully everything will be back to normal soon. I just need those Bali insta holidays y´know? Lying at the beach, shipping on that coconut and living stress free. I´m not even yearning for summer, right now spring sounds just as good.

Intento escribir esta entrada, pero todo en mi cabeza esta hecho un lio. Estoy así, en bucle, desde hace varios meses, y no consigo concentrarme en nada de lo que me importa. Llevo tiempo dándole vueltas a la misma historia, quiero crecer, hacer cosas nuevas, y disfrutar. Todo al mismo tiempo, cosa que ahora mismo se me está haciendo imposible. Doy el 100% en todo y yo, que llevo el lema fluye grabado a fuego en la frente, estoy haciendo todo lo contrario. Todo lleva tiempo pero mi cabecita no lo entiende, y se pone nerviosa. Pero algo ha hecho click (seguramente haber estado enferma una semana ha tenido algo que ver) y mi consciente ha decidido cuidarse, por que mi subconsciente ya se preocupará de lo que sea -o no sea. Este dilema ha hecho que el blog este desatendido, pero con suerte a partir de esta semana todo volverá a ser como hace unas semanas. Y es que solo necesito unas vacaciones en Bali, ¿sabéis? Bebiendo agua de coco y viviendo sin estrés. Me conformo solo con que llegue la primavera, solecito y buen tiempo suena genial ahora mismo.

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